EVERYTHING YOU KNOW IS ABOUT TO END

holy crap i went to PA ;)

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 23:22:28 GMT

I miss PA so muchhhh. I miss homee in your arms. Steeeeve, I miss you so desperately, I love you. I loved falling in love with you again and again. Be mine forever, Steve. I know you will.

HEYEHEYEHEYE

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 14:01:34 GMT

TONIGHT

hey ;)

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 18:01:11 GMT

3 days, let me hold you

OMG

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 15:07:19 GMT

5 DAYS!!!!! YES

yussss

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 17:44:28 GMT

19 days ;)

AAAAAAH wow

Wed, 18 Jan 2006 23:57:31 GMT

23 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS fuck yes

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 21:49:25 GMT

24 days til i see you againnnnnnn!!!! PA, HERE I COME

best weekend ever

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 01:34:49 GMT

Perfect. I knew from the start everything would turn out completely perfect just as we always imagined. My time with you, Steve, was so unbelievably familiar and natural, and i loved falling in love with you repeatedly every single day. Waking up in your arms, watching you sleep with your lips touching mine, feeling your arms wrapped around me, kissing you, it is as if we've done it all for years and years. Steveeeee, I miss you so much. I love you soooo dearly, passionately, completely. I loved holding you and just talking all night MMMMM. You belong here with me forever, my home is your home, my family is your family, I belong only to you. Please keep me and cherish me as much as i treasure you. I love you I lovvvvvvvvvve you i love you I LOVE YOU holy fucking crap i can't believe how lucky i am to have you. My favorite. My soulmate. My true love. DREAM COME TRUE!!! Corny tv movie come true!!! One way or another, Steve, we'll have June. Five months and we can make it. And we'll have forever. I promise to stay with you through THICK AND THIN. Always know you can count on me, know that my love for you grows stronger day by day. I'm incapable of living this life without you. I need you I love you Marry me YOU'RE my other half.
I loved how awkward it was at first, our smiles, our short hug in front of my parents. You went to the wrong place and i was left waiting!! WE'LL HAVE OUR MOMENT IN JUNE ;) Mmm then in the car, our hands found each other, and I told you I LOVE YOU and broke the ice. Your hand on my knee. Our hands examining each other. After that first awkward kiss, i really really really started to enjoy it ;) HEYULL YEAH. The familiar smell of your cologne when i squeeze you. Such perfection. Whoodathunkit? Me in the arms of the one i love. My Steve. FINALLYYYYY. Our stroll. The movie theater. Your fingers stroking my shoulder inside my shirt. Sweet sensual beautiful loving passionate dizzy butterflies. MMMMmmmmmmmm. Steeeeeeeve. I adore you, my hero, my savior, my role model, my love. I'm so soooooo in love with you. That heartbreaking goodbye leaving me so empty. This will be complete and utter agony, waiting on our June. But we'll make it. We'll have forever happily ever invincible after.

tomorrow :)

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 15:32:00 GMT

TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Perfect.

gogogo!!!!!

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 13:30:07 GMT

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. JUST 6 DAYS.

yyyyyyyyyes

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 18:03:59 GMT

9 DAYS. YES. SINGLE DIGITS.

eeeee

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 02:41:39 GMT

11 daysss.

holy crap

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 00:45:16 GMT

12 days.

you beautiful soul, you

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 03:57:34 GMT

Steve, I'm in love with you

DEC 30

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 02:43:02 GMT

Everything is going to be completely perfect, I know it. I've never been so certain of anything before. OMG 2 weekssssss. 2 weeks from now I finally get to hold you and know. ABSOLUMENT!!! 3 days after my birthday, the year i turn 21, the year everything finally fell into place. EACH PASSING MOMENT IS A CHANCE TO TURN IT ALL AROUND and i finally did it :) WE did it. we finally get what we've always wantedddddd yessssssss. could things get any more perfectttt? i think so ;) hurry up and come to nc. MAKE TIME GO FAH STUH

mostly to Sue, in case you read anything at all

Sat, 29 Oct 2005 21:54:42 GMT

Just know, first, that whatever you've read previously was the old me, the pessimistic, apathetic, negative, depressed, anxious, antisocial me. I don't take livejournal seriously really. It's mostly a cure for boredom every now and then, and I tend to use it only to vent or to make fun of myself. Most of all, it's a thing of the past. HEhe just so you know. That's all, JUST SO YA KNOW. Anyway, I'm not saying I've changed ENTIRELY, but I am changing. I'm making progress, overcoming all the obstacles in my life, becoming who I am without any shame, and regaining lost self-worth. I'm just one of the many people out there with flaws and inhibitions, a young person on the verge of starting a life of my own. And somewhere in these past few months, in this journey to better myself and learning to love myself and acceptance, I found love. Real love and I know this is it. It might sound CORNY AND CLICHED and oh well. I want you to know I love Steve WITH EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING, as the saying goes. And it's true it's real. I love him inside and out and I always have. I think he's an extraordinary person, deserving of so much love and happiness and I need him. He needs me. We need and love each other SO MUCH and after 7 years I KNOW he's the one for me. I get him he gets me we KNOW the true individuals inside. Heehh that's the beauty of the internet!lf!kj I just want you (and the world) to know how much he means to me, that over the years we never gave up on each other. We've both changed, matured, came into our own, and one day had the courage enough to say how we both felt about each other. SO ANYWAY, I really do love him completely and it feels so incredibly right. I'm so grateful our paths have crossed in life just as it was always meant to happen. I really am so so lucky to have himmm. I want to love him forever. I love you, Steve.

NOW my game is calling me ;) I have to beat the last colossus again OHHHHHHHHHHHMMMMMMMMMMMYGOD i lovvvvvvvvve it. im so excited heh. let me just go beat t he game again right quick....

hi

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 20:41:50 GMT

So. everything's changing.   outside as well as in. and for the better.   day by day it's getting better.   PROGRESS!!!!   i feel invincible and NO it's not just the paxil WINKWINKWINKNUDGEELBOWWINKLICKFUCK.

SCHOOL.
Anxiety pressure gauge going down. Lettin the steam out.   My classes are fantastic.
NEW HAIR. finally some confidence.   finally a self esteem boost.   a notch.
i'm starting to shed some inhibitions. tho i don't think i'll ever stop being so aware of myself all the time. i don't want to completely annihilate my awareness, i just need to stop thinking so much.  DON'T STOP TO THINK ABOUT IT TOO MUCH JUST DO IT. just do it. go for the gold slice that gold and fry it up.
STEVE. LOVE. CERTAINTY. AMAZING. MY FUTURE. DESTINY. SERATONIN. CUDDLE. AWESOME. MY ONE. CHO-SIMBA. I'M SO IN LOVE WITH YOU I WANT TO WAD YOU UP INTO MY LIFE LET'S ROLL UP TO BE A SINGLE STAR IN THE SKY I HEAR YOU CALLIN MEEEEeeeeee.   YES.   finally.   us.   as it always should have been. just as i foresaw it. my dreams. past lives. i know. i can't wait to have you in my arms ;;;;;;;;;)

Steve. Perfect

i reformatted my computer and lost everything :)   so :) if you actually read this :)   please :) if you have anything i might have sent to you over the years :)   send me it :) plz? PLZ ?   well. i need to get back to reinstalling all my games, programs, getting pitchaz back, websites, old saved games on floppy disks, music. i wish i could get my old aim name back.   LOOKIN MY INFO FOR MY NEW UGLY AIM NAME.   I NEED TO PEE.   hey this was supposed to be a serious update. oh well. naw ;)

i dunno

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 02:26:27 GMT

GET OFF THE FUCKING DESK!!!
and then a step to the right.

PUT YOUR HANDS ON YOUR HIPS.

ok. so im bored. yea my hands smell like vagina, which means i ate fish today. wanna smell? SO i have no desire to fool with this crap anymore! MOSTLY BECAUSE VIRUSES AND SPYWARE ATE MY COMPUTER. NOT THAT YOU CARE. whoever you are. school's back. trying to get my life in order. trying to figure out this "SOCIALIZING" bidness. TURNING MY LIFE AROUND. just stop being so negative, denise. thanks. it means a lot.

GOD jumping spiders are so cute. JUST LOOK AT THIS FUCKIN SHIT

god cutest thing i've ever seen. take you home and love you. K BYE

feel good. shake it shake it.

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 19:53:47 GMT

oh wow look at that. i have not updated my crap in over 200 years. i have no patience no energy omg who cares about this i certainly dont i have no interest anymore oh well so i guess im bored. yes. that is why i update. it's summer. school is just around the corner. i shaved my AREA for to swimmy swim but there has been ZERO opportunities for swimmy swim ON ACCOUNT OF THIS BAD ASss weather! goodness it's storming constantly!!! plus. i have been so obsessed. with . a certain two games . and a million dvds and trips to the theater. also. i attend counseling with a wonderful psychologist. oh. and paxil gives me horrible horrible headaches and occasional insomnia episodes. last night i slept 3 hours. SIGH. mountain girl and mr. pancake. i think BYE. i wish to play POP forever and ever. forever??? forever ever??????????????????Kkkkkkkk

I HOPE RIGHT YOU ARE

Fri, 20 May 2005 19:02:23 GMT

MY ASS PARKED ON THE COUCH ALL WEEK WATCHING LIVE E3 COVERAGE ON G4TECHTV OMFGOMFOMGOMFG. FF7:ADVENTCHILDREN LOOKS MOTHERFUCKING GORGEOUS HOLY MATRIMONY I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE PS3 WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW OK SO GOOD LUCK

keep your hand at the level of your eyes!

Sun, 08 May 2005 23:57:25 GMT

TIME FOR HAPPY SING-ALONG JOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lolz

Phantom:
Down once more to the dungeons of my black despair
Down we plunge to the prison of my mind
Down that path into darkness,
deep as hell!

Why, you ask,
was I bound and chained
in this cold and dismal place?
Not for any mortal sin
but the wickedness of my abhorrent face!

Mob:
Track down this murderer
He must be found....
Hunt down this murderer
He must be found...

Phantom:
Hounded out by everyone
Met with hatred everywhere
No kind words from anyone
No compassion anywhere!
[Spoken]Christine. Why, why . . .?

Madame Giry:
Your hand at the level of your eyes....

Raoul:
Your hand at the level of your eyes....

Mob:
Your hand at the level of your eyes....

Madame Giry [Spoken]:
This is as far as I dare go.

Raoul [Spoken]:
Thank you.

(Raoul goes through all the traps of the Phantom's lair. He swims and everything)

Christine:
Have you gorged yourself at last
in your lust for blood?
Am I now to be prey
to your lust for flesh?

Phantom:
That fate, which condemns me to wallow in blood
Has also denied me the joys of the flesh . . .
This face, the infection which poisons our love . . .

This face, which earned a mother’s fear and loathing
A mask, my first unfeeling scrap of clothing

Pity comes too late
Turn around and face your fate
An eternity of THIS before your eyes

Christine:
This haunted face holds no horror for me now...
It’s in your soul that the true distortion lies...

Phantom:
Wait! I think, my dear, we have a guest
Sir...

Christine (spoken): Raoul!

Phantom:
...This is indeed an unparalleled delight
I had rather hoped that you would come
(Puts his arm around Christine) And now my wish comes true!
You have truly made my night!

Christine [spoken]:
Let me go!

Raoul: (Pleading)
Free her!
Do what you like, only free her
Have you no pity?

Phantom:
Your lover makes a passionate plea.

Christine:
Please, Raoul, it’s rather useless.

Raoul:
I love her!
Does that mean nothing?
I love her!
Show some compassion!

Phantom:
The world showed no compassion to me!

Raoul:
Christine...
Christine...
Let me see her...

Phantom:
Be my guest, sir...
Monsieur, I bid you welcome!
Did you think that I would harm her?
Why would I make her pay
for the sins which are yours?

(Begins to tie Raoul to the gate)

Phantom: (Taunting as he ties Raoul's arms to the gate)
Order your fine horses now!
Raise up your hand to the level of your eyes!
Nothing can save you now... except for Christine!

(To Christine)
Start a new life with me!
Buy his freedom with your love!
Refuse me, and you send your lover to his death!
This is the choice!
This is the point of no return!

Christine:
The tears I might have shed
for your dark fate,
Grow cold and turn to tears
of hate!

Raoul:
Christine, forgive me, please forgive me.
I did it all
for you, and all for
nothing!

(Erik the Phantom grabs more rope and wraps it around Raoul, and places a noose around his neck to hang him)

Christine:
Farewell, my fallen idol and false friend
We had such hopes, and now those hopes are shattered....

Phantom:
Too late for turning back, Too late for prayers and useless pity!

Raoul:
Say you love him, and my life is over!

Phantom:
All hope of cries of help,
No point in fighting!
For either way you choose, You cannot win!

Raoul:
Either way you choose, he has to win....

Phantom:
So do you end your days with me?
Or do you send him to his grave? (Pulls the rope)

Raoul:
Why make her lie to you to save me?

Phantom:
Past the point of no return...

Christine:
Angel of Music . . .

Raoul:
For pity's sake, Christine say no!

Christine:
Who deserved this?

Phantom:
The final threshold...

Raoul:
Don't throw your life away for my sake!

Phantom:
His life is now the prize which you must earn!

Christine:
Why do you curse mercy?

Raoul:
I fought so hard to free you...

Christine:
Angel of Music...

Phantom:
You've passed the point of no return!

Chrstine:
...you deceived me!
[spoken]How could you?I gave you my mind

Phantom[spoken]:
You try my patience,
Now,make your choice!

(Pulls the rope)

Raoul: (Chokes and gags)

Christine:
Pitiful creature of darkness,
What kind of life have you known?
God give me courage to show you,
You are not alone!

(Kisses Erik)

Mob:
Track down this
murderer, he must be found!
Hunt out this animal, who runs to ground!
Too long he's preyed on us, but now we know, the phantom of the opera is there, deep down below!

Phantom[spoken]:
Take her, forget me,
Forget all of this . . .
Leave me alone - forget all you’ve seen . . .
Go now - don’t let them find you!
Take the boat, swear to me, never to tell
The secret you know, of the angel in hell!

[sung]Go now - GO NOW and leave me!

(they leave)

(With music box as background melody)
Masquerade
Paper faces on parade . . .
Masquerade
Hide your face so the world will never find you . . .

Christine, I love you....

(Christine has returned to give him the ring. She returns to Raoul.)

Christine (to Raoul, on the boat):
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime

Raoul:
Say the word and I will follow you...

Both:
Share each day with me, each night, each morning...

Phantom:
(quietly)You alone, can make my song take flight.

(loudly)
It's over now, the music of the night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Smashes all the mirrors with a candlestick. When he smashes all the mirrors, he walks through the last mirror he smashes. That mirror leads to a tunnel. He walks through)

yeyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111kljjklklkjlkj

THIGH OF BLUE!

Thu, 05 May 2005 01:13:56 GMT

masquerade!!!
paper faces on parade....
masquerade!!!
hide your face so the world will never find yooooouuuu

<3 <3

so i recently watched the bubbling shit out of phantom of the opera, and OF COURSE i would like it :|   the world needs more musicals.   why not?   i'm tired of the same feel good romantic comedies and boring action flicks. :(   we need more kung fu hustles and quirky sideways movies and musicals.   we need MORE.   LISTEN TO ME, HOLLYWOOD, STOP TREATING ME LIKE THIS. STOP IT.   anyhoot, i guess! you'd either LOVE IT or hate it. if musicals aren't your thing, no, you'll probably not like it notta BIT.   I THOUGHT MINNIE DRIVER was hilarious and the phantom OOZING WITH CHARISMA HURRAY. take me away any day, mr. phanty pants, you don't need no christine daae. PFFFF!!!!!!! emmy rossum is so disgustingly talented at only 17.   she makes me cry in my cereal. i thought she could have expressed herself a little more. show some damn emotion on her pretty face instead of pacing around and barely lip syncing to her own powerful vocals.  COME ON.   MAKE A FACE. ANY FACE. BE ANGRY GRRRRRRRR!!!! sigh!!!!!!!!!!! i love the music :) even though the same songs were sung over and over and over and over and over and over with words changed here and there.   i've never seen the play so i dunno how things are SUPPOSED TO BE but i GUESS things were handled well since mr. webber himself wrote the screenplay, produced it, or whatever he did. so. as long as he's happy, i'm happy.   good job.   yum.   i like the intro. the chandelier.   and the masquerade song even though i didn't much care for that particular part. i like the rooftop and when she steps thru the mirror.   I'D REALLY like to see what Baz Lurhmann could do with this movie. It would probably be up to its ASS in LUST and SENSUALITY AND LOVE TRUTH BEAUTY AND TAKE ME AWAY INTO THIS GOTHIC FANTASY if lurhmann had directed a phantom movie. maybe he will. i still like this movae tho :) coulda been WORLDS better. IT'S NO MOULIN ROUGE but it'll do. that'll do.   that'll do boss. that'll do. masqueraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaddddde paper faces on parade :(   omg phantom i love you, let us run away and be stark raving mad TOGETHER. we'll don capes and masks and wander the opera house together, destroying anyone who defiles the MUSIC OF THE NIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGHT!!!!!!!   we'll eat them like hannibal lector ate that one man for screwing up in the string section.  TEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CARDINALS FLYING IN PAIRS
LIZARDS TOO. BUT NOT FLYING.
yey spring is here :) hurry the fuck up, summer.   billions of tadpoles in the pool :(   we'll hafta suck em all out. suck em out. SUCK. suck those black spermies out.

alex seems to like when stephen chow and the gang break out into kung fu style thriller in the middle of shaolin soccer. well not quite the middle. more like 30 minutes into it.   break into song or else i will EXPLODE.   I MUST EXPRESS MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1   and then i dance all over the place and Evil Baby thinks my dancing is hilarious :(   :)   but the dancing in the movie is hilarious-er.

SO MANY CAR ACCIDENTS. MOM WAS REAR ENDED.   THAT'S 4 ACCIDENTS OVER A SPAN OF 5 MONTHS. WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?   MY DAD IS LIKE "FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK I'M SO TIRED OF TALKING TO THE FUCKING INSURANCE PEOPLE FUCK." and im lik "yeeeeeeAUH tuuutally those dayurm insurance paypullllll. okzizizizi????? see now why i hate driving? people are assholes and they don't know how to drive :("   luckily none of it has been our fault. just blind, 99-year-old people with no legs on the road driving. it's their fault.

annnnngeeeeeeelllllll of muuuuusiiiiiiiiiiccccccc
dammit i've been singing phantom songs all damn day and minnie driver's funnyass voice is screaming in my head "DON'T STEP ON MY DRESS!!!!!!!! WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE?!!!!??????" and i can't beat her away. get off me, minnie. why'd your folks name you minnie? do you drive a mini cooper? is my period going to start too soon this month?   is that a turtle head poking out? WHYYYYYYYeeeeee?   WHYEEEEEE??? BRING MY DOGGY AND MY BOXY I AM EREALLY LEAVING HTIS TIME BYYYYE BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE?????????? whyyyyyyEEEEEEE?   lolz. sigh.

end of the semester. time to die.   framed my creation.   it did it the HARD way as i always do things.   simplify, dearie, don't make things more complicated than they need to be!!   SORRYYYYY aaaaaaah!!!   math final today.   people always looking to ME for help on math and i get SO NERVOUS i can barely see.   i could TOTALLY explain to you how to do this annoying ass word problem if i could only BREATHE and see straight :(      MOTHER FUCKING FUCKER.

well. at least i'm pleased with my drawing.   i wish i could take a picture of it or something but someone has misplaced my camera and i'm going to shit a brick out of my left nostril. not my right notril though. it's bled enough already. strange thing. my left is the one that always ACTS UP in the summer, not my right. maybe the left is taking a break. went to the bahamas. now my right nostril is forced to wear the pants in the family. in this relationship. my right nostril is the macho machismo working man, walking around like it's nobody's business. and my left nostril gets to the be the flamboyant gay one wearing floral print and asking WHO DOES YOUR DECORATING. this time.

oh snap, idol's on.

chills

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 01:20:55 GMT

gat DAYUM spiders are scury :) HURRAY WOLF SPIDER oO_Oo
i dunno if the one i saw was RABID or just plain wolf spider :O ?????????????????? they're fun to watch from a distance. also, jumping spiders are fun to play with. so run out now kids and find yourself a wolf spider and see if it will bite you. i'm sure it will. but they're not poisonous :) so it's okay. okay? okay so good luck. *yes* scarey fuckers. get out my house!!
oOOo
vv

YOUR LOVE IS LIKE. A ROLLER COASTER. BABY. BABY. I WANT TO RIDE?????? double dipper?

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 23:59:30 GMT

ouch i farted one of those A TURTLE HEAD IS RIGHT BEHIND IT farts. it smelled heavenly.  like a wet fart. like farting in the bathtub when you're 9 years old or 20. my stomach is rumbling like LIONS ROAR STYLE.   which reminds me. Kung Fu Hustle is awesome like wow. Like that. Like wow. and also Whoa.   Probably my new favorite movie :( i mean :)   but i dunno man Amelie from Montmarte is awesommmme and so is RUN LOLA RUN. i just can't decide!!!!!!!!   I WATCHED SHAOLIN SOCCER AGAIN TO CELEBRATE MY LOVE FOR STEPHEN CHOW AND I PARTICULARLY LIKE WHEN THEY BREAK OUT INTO KUNG-FU STYLE THRILLER DANCING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET.   YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.   whenever i hear someone express their deepest feelings and most heartfelt thoughts I MUST BREAK INTO A DANCE. SHA BANG SHABANG DA DOOT DA DOOT. COME ON EVERYONE. *thriller*   steam buns. don't watch the USA version, it's too short. the original is better and has more funnies. hurray. go go go stephen chow, you can beat jackie chan, i know you can!!! RHYMES!
pauL I Mljasldj i mean jesus christ i mean paula abdul totally screwed corey whatshisface from season whatevernumber. ISN'T THAT SPECIAL. I WONDER WHO CARES???????????????????????????????
KUNG FU HUSTLE LIGHTS UP MY UNIVERSE. natalie portman in Closer does not. please.   please omg.
who stinks in here fool????? dayumm. oh thas me.
ooo idol's comin on in like 1 minute.
sweetie's steam buns.
stick your buddha's palm in my sweetie steam buns.
good lord, i need to take a poop.
pinch it.....come on. omg sharp pain. pinch it back just. uuuuajlkklja;elj just hang on i swear i'll take you to the bathroom, colon powellfl, juast plzzzz hang on ogm. PAIN. whew. pinched it.   but it will return. just like that wolf spider i caught in a mayonaise jar the other day. why?   it was the biggest spider EVER and i caught it and set it free, but now it knows who i am. it's seen my face. it knows where i live. it'll be back. i told it, LOOK, this town ain't big enuff for the bof of us and if i see your ugly face oO_Oo around here again, i'll have to kill you. hopefully it had its wits about him and skeeeeeee DADDLED right on outta dodge.   i hope :) i don't want to wake up with a wolf spider on my face tomorrow or any other morning in the future.   at least i THINK it was a wolf spider. i should go double check. i think its face looked wolf spider-ish, but i forgot to check the markings on its body ???    I THREW THE JAR IN MY MOM'S FACE AND SHE HAD KITTENS IN HER PANTS. SHE HAD A COW.
Also, Candyman is a superb movie and i'm glad i watched it in its entirety at 2:10 am in the morning. WHAT A FREAK. nightmares. god i love tony todd.   i wish he'd just follow me around all day and narrate everything i do with that soothing deep voice of his.   i remember it coming out in 1992 and scaring the BEJESUS out of me. i would go into the bahtroom and say CANDYMAN 5 TIMES and he never came :(   maybe i didn't believe enough??? i believe now.   i believe. candyman, i believe.   maybe i should do bloody mary instead.   i'll do it tonight. if i don't return, THAT MEANS I DIED.   actually i'll just go in there and poop. MAYBE CANDYMAN WILL HOOK ME FROM INSIDE THE TOILET.   HOOK MY BOOTY HOLE. RIP ME FROM BOOTY HOLE TO THE NAPE OF MY NECK.    FAAAAAAANTASTIC.   PURDIER THAN A TWO DOLLAR WHORE.
why wont sci fi channel bring THE INVISIBLE MAN back??? it was popular in the UK :( more than here :(   i guess they didn't get enough ratings even after what 3 seasons???????? that was the BEST show ever. i NEVER missed it. they wont even release the dvd in the US, the bastards!!!!! IT'S ONLY AVAILABLE IN THE UK.   mother fucker sci fi channel, i've lost my faith in you!!!! I'VE LOST JESUS THRU THE HOLE IN MY POCKET. I'VE LOST MY FAITH, SCI FI, YOU NEED TO PLAY RE-RUNS AND then maybe that'll be proof enough. maybe i'll complain about it on the message boards. bring back I-man, mothafucka!!!!!! i need my vincent !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! seeing him in lame ass Larva just isn't GOOD ENOUGH!!!!!11
POINTLESS DRIVEL.
now i need to play ff8 again. damn.
i'd rather play ff7, though it will never work again.
i need to poop.
i need some exercise.
there's a knot in my arm and the bruise is still there. what if the tendons are having a party and that's why there's a strange BUNCH under my flesh? tendon party. tentacles.
OMG what.

SOOOOOOOOOOOOO OW.

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 00:33:50 GMT

SO YESTERDAY I WENT TO A FAMILY REUNION AND SAW A BUNCH OF PEOPLES I DID NOT KNOW.   I WAS INTRODUCED TO BILLIONS OF RELATIVES WHO ALL SAID BASICALLY THE SAME THING: "OAMEJGJ I HAVEN'T SEEN YOU SINCE YOU WERE KNEE HIGH TO A PIG'S EYE I HAVEN'T SEEN YOU SINCE YOU WERE KNEE HIGH TO A GRASSHOPPER." REALLY WOW THAT WOULD MAKE ME INCREDIBLY SHORT THEN WOULDN'T IT? AND ALL THE RELATIVES I KNEW ASKED THE SAME QUESTIONS THEY ALWAYS ASK WHEN THEY SEE ME. SO THE WHOLE DAY WENT IN CIRCLES. ALEX FOUND A PLAYMATE AND MY GRANDMA DANCED TO THAT COCTTOTON EYE JOE SONG OR WHATEVER THE FUCK. WHERE DID YOU COME FROM WHERE DID YOU GOOOOOOO SOMETHING SOMETHING COCK IN THE EYE JOE.
COCK IN THE EYE JOE. Gentleman, I believe it's time we had ourselves a cup of cock in the eye joe.

SO TODAY I WENT TO MY NEPHEW EVIL BABY'S BIRTHDAY PARTY, THOUGH HIS BIRTHDAY WAS LIKE 7 DAYS AGO. OUCH MY RIBS HURT. HE SAID "DENISE FIX THE BUBBLE GUN!!!!" SO I FIXED IT AND BLEW BUBBLES ALL DAY TO PLEASE HIM. THEN HE SAID "dENISE FIND THE HELLO KOPPER" SO I FOUND THE HELICOPTER AND FLEW IT AND IT CRASHED INTO SOMEONE'S CAR AND I WAS LIKE OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH SHIT. BUT IT TURNED OUT TO BE PAM'S CAR AND SHE SEZ "LOLZ YOU DON'T WANT TO LIVE TO SEE YOUR NEXT BIRTHDAY DO YOU????? LOLZ LOLZ" AND I SAID " HAA.................HA! OPPZ." SO THEN IT WAS A MATTER OF TIME BEFORE I WOULD HAVE TO URINATE SO I WALKED DOWN THE TRACK TO THE PUBLIC RESTROOM IN THE PARK AND THE WALLS AND TOILETS WERE MAGNIFICANTLY PAINTED WITH FECES AND I WAS YELLING IN MY HEAD "WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT THEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK" BUT I DID NOT WANT TO SAY THAT OUT LOUD. THERE MIGHT HAVE BEEN CHILDREN IN THERE COATING THE WALLS WITH THEIR POOP AND LICKING THEIR FINGERS. SO YUCK. I HAD TO HOVER INSTEAD OF COVER BECAUSE I WAS SURE AS SHIT NOT GOING TO SIT DOWN ON THE POOPY SEATS WITH MY PANTS DOWN RESTING IN THE POOPY WATER.   SIGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOW.   I HATE PUBLIC RESTROOMS.    WOW.   THAT WAS A LOT OF POOP.   A LOT.

SO AFTER I WENT TO THE PARTY I TOOK MY NEW BIKE TO THE GREENWAY AND RODE ALONG WITH MY MA AND PA I MEAN MY MOM AND DAD AND THAT WAS FUN UNTIL.   I FOUND OUT MY TIRES WEREN'T EXACTLY MADE FOR RIDING ON REALLY SLICK FLOORBOARD.   I WAS GOING WAY TOO FAST AND TRYING TO BRAKE WAS IMPOSSIBLE :) I NEED A HELMUT AND A CHINGUARD AND ELBOW PADS AND KNEE PADS AND A CAMP TEE SHIRT A BALLOON AND A FLAG TIED TO MY BIKE PROCLAIMING TO THE WORLD HOW REPTARDED I AM.   N E WAY.   I WAS IN A SHARP CURVE, COMING UP ON A 300 LB WOMAN TAKING UP THE ENTIRE FUCKING TRACK.  OMG FATTY GO LOSE WEIGHT SOMEWHERE ELSE!!!!! I CAN'T GET AROUND YOU YOU'RE TAKING UP THE WHOLE TRACK.   SINCE I WAS IN A SHARP CURVE, THERE WAS NOTHING I COULD DO TO GET AROUND HER BECAUSE THERE WAS A COUPLE COMING TOWARDS ME ON THE LEFT, SO I COULDN'T DODGE HER ON THE LEFT. AND ON THE RIGHT WAS THE GUARD RAIL. SO I HAD NO CHOICE BUT TO SLAM INTO THE GUARD RAIL SINCE MY BRAKES WOULD NOT BRAKE BECAUSE THE GROUND WAS SLICK AND MY TIRES ARE NOT FOR SLICKNESS. OH WELL.   DAMN FATTIES!!!!! I SWEAR I WAS ABOUT TO GO AROUND HER ON THE LEFT JUST A TAAAAD BUT THE BITCH MOVED OVER AND I HAD TO JERK TO THE RIGHT AT THE LAST MINUTE AND I CRASHED.   THE COUPLE COMING TOWARDS ME WAS LIKE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND HELPED ME UP :) AND I SAD OMFG DAD I REALLY NEED A HELMUT I SUCK AND THEY LAUGHED AND MY ARM IS BLOODY AND BRUISED AND I MIGHT HAVE FRACTURED IT BUT I DOUBT IT SINCE I CAN MOVE IT AND YELL YELL YELL YELL AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHG. i fell on my side. and warped my new bike but my dad was able to warp it back. my pretty bike. UGH. i'm totally not going to school tomorra haha. mom, my leg hurts like shit. it's a good thing i didn't wear shorts today or things could be worse. lolllll sorry i haven't ridden a bike in like 10 years and i was really nervous around all those fatties taking up the whole track.   i swear i need to go there earlier to get my exercise when there's not so many angry fatties flopping around taking up my road. FATTY YOU'RE GONNA GET US ALL KILLED.   ugh just stay in one place, don't go zig-zagging all over the track.

THE POINT OF THIS STORY IS. IF YOU'RE FAT. DON'T WALK ANYWHERE WHERE PEOPLE ARE ALSO WALKING OR RIDING.   YOU'RE TOO FAT.    AND IF YOU'RE FAT AND YOU JUST HAAAAAAAAAAF TA WALK NEAR ME, THEN STAY ON ONE SIDE OF THE ROAD, DON'T CHANGE LANES AT THE LAST SECOND, THERE ARE BIKERS PRESENT.
though it might be a good idea to change my tires or just slow the eff down in that particular area.   sigh . im such a klutz. i can't do anything right.   fatties, stay out of my way. i'm gonna run you over next time i see you .   that wouldn't do any good though, i'd bounce right off. bitch ho.

angry fat.
die of skinny.
die of fat.
angry pole.

i can't ride bike apparently. nah, i'll be more careful next time and next time i'll bring my glasses. i forgot about my glasses. dumb ass. ouch my wrist hurts.   how do you tell if you've broken your arm, i've never broken anything before? since i can move it, it's not broken. but it's swollen so it looks like i have a bone trying to poke out of my skin and it's really gross. im worried. im sure it's fine.   i don't ever want to break anything :) i hope i never do :)

alex likes bubbles.

shaolin soccer is so effing funny.
OH I FORGOT, I'M A FIREMAN!!!
YEAH ME TOO, MY WIFE IS HAVING A BABY!!!!! SORRY I GOTTA GO. I CAN HEAR THE BABY!11!!!
WOW HOW DO THEY FLY SO FAST???? IT MUST BE WIRES.
kung fu hustle is probably ten times better.

oh damn i can't get that sap off my arm.

THE WOODSMAN IS GR8 MOVIE.

why was Frodo in my dream last night??? what was that all about???? some guy in my dream last night who looked like a cross between MARK MCGRATFHH and VINCENT D'NOFRIO (sp?) KIDNAPPED AND RAPED SOME ROCKSTAR GIRL. HE TOOK HER AWAY INTO THIS DARK DARK CASTLE AND IT WAS UP TO ME, RYE, MY ART TEACHER, MY ART CLASS, AND FRODO TO FIND THE SUPER STAR KIDNAPPED GIRL.   THE PLACE WAS HAUNTED AND IN FRONT OF THE CASTLE WAS A HUGE YARD FILLED WITH GIANT CHESS PIECES AND GARGOYLES. ALSO RANDOM JUNK LIKE TORN COUCHES AND PILLOWS AND TEA POTS AND OLD BOOTS AND YEAH. AND FRODO HAS ESP AND HE CAN SENSE WHEN SOMETHING BAD IS GOING TO HAPPEN SO HE'S VERY HANDY TO HAVE IN OUR LITTLE OPERATION. SO WHEN A BUFFALO STAMPEDE IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN, HE'S LIKE "UMG HUNKER DOWN OVA HERE THERE'S GUNNA BE A MASSIVE ERUPTION OF EVIL BUFFALO FOR NO REASON" SO WE HIDE AND LET THE BUFFALO ANIMAL THINGS PASS. AND THEN WE'RE IN THE CASTLE, ON ONE OF THE HIGHEST FLOORS I THINK, AND WE'RE RUNNING UP SPIRAL STAIRCASES AND NAVIGATING THROUGH LABYRINTH-LIKE STAIRCASE MAZES WHERE JENNIFER CONNELLY CAN'T GET TO HER BABY BROTHER TOBEY BECAUSE DAVID BOWIE'S CASTLE IS CRAZIER THAN A SHIT HOUSE RAT.   SO RYE IS LIKE WAAAAAAIT HOLD UP DON'T GO AHEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT I DONT CARE I RUN AHEAD AND I SEE SOME GHOSTLY FIGURE IN A WHITE DRESS and that's all i remember. AT SOME POINT IN MY DREAM, I RANDOMLY GOT NEKKID WHILE IN CLASS. the end.

ouch my neck.

i don't want to go to school tomorrow i'm in too much pain :(
i can't even walk my leg is so gross.
i dont remember the last time i was banged up this badly.
i tend to stay out of harm's way except when i have a klutz attack.
there's no way to avoid falling down a flight of stairs or walking straight into a kitchen drawer that someone should have pushed in.
there's just no way.

so alex is four. i think he's a bit of a late bloomer. a slow learner. i was WAY MORE ADVANCED than he is at four hahaha. but that's probably because his mom is deaf and it takes a little time to teach him and make him MIND. it's hard for him to communicate what he wants because he's never heard her SPEAK so he doesn't know what to SAY.   his dad works nights and sleeps all day so yeah.   but . he does alright. he understands what his mom wants of him by listening to the noises she makes i guess.   OUCH PAIN.    hurt.     STILL, my sister is spoiling the shit out of him and he's a little bratty and she needs to SPANK HIM more. :) not beat him like MY PARENTS BEAT ME. MY DAD WOULD BEAT THE HELL OUT OF ME :)   i bet they think i don't remember it but i do :)   :(   both my sister and her husband can be extremely selfish... so i wonder how long their marriage will last.   he's put up with my sister and her selfish ways for four years.... but couples of 40 years divorce all the time.   they both need to learn to not think of themselves so much. they have a kid now. THEIR LIVES ARE OVER. it's time to start thinking of alex's life.   SNEEZE.

oh snap i left my headphones down here.   wow it's almost 9.   should i watch Hotel Rwanda and cry my eyes out again??? or watch Shaolin Soccer and laugh my ass clean off ? again? my ass breaking jaggedly off and running away, skipping and laughing, "AHHH NAAAAH YOU CAN'T CATCH ME LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111"
If my ASS had an ass, it would look just like your FACE.

haha yesterday i asked my mom "IS DAD STILL OUT THERE WATERING THE CAR?" and she was like "LMAOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! WHAT?" and i said "LMFOAOOOO I MEAN IS HE WASHING IT ." LOL YEAH IS HE WATERING IT, IS IT GROWING??? IS HE TOUCHING ITS LEAVES AND TALKING TO IT???? MAKE SURE HE DOESN'T GIVE IT TOO MUCH SUN OR WATER OR IT'LL DIE LOZLZLZLK DORRRRRRRK" so my mom cracked up and asked my dad "ARE YOU WATERING THE CAR HONEY LOL??" and my dad goes "JUST THE INSIDE OF IT. IT'S GROWING REAL BIG NOWZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ" and haha. that reminded me of Popuri watering the sidewalk and i just dieddddddd for about 15 minutes.   imagination is fun.   watering things is hilarious.    gee.
excuse me i have to go water the car now and baptize a giraffe.

NO SCHOOL FOR ME SORRY IM INJURED.   EW IF I DO, SO MANY PEOPLE WILL BE ASKING OMFG DENISE WHAT THE HELLLLLLL DID YOU DO TO YOURSELF ARE YOUR PARENTS BEATING YOU???? LOL NOOOO I FELL OFF MY BIKE CUZ I SUUUUUUCK SO HARD. suck.....SUCK......SUCK!!!

she's gone from suck to blow.